I Finally Gave You the Reigns (Matthew 11:28-30)

Hellooo, everyone. :) So, I'm kinda new to this blogging thing. The last time I used it was for a different blog page - which was required for my Summer study abroad program last year.  Well here it goes.

God has been doing A LOT in such a short amount of time.  Like, a complete 180, and I'm blown away at how the lenses through which I viewed life has radically shifted in such a short amount of time.  I'm going to let the poem say the rest for itself.


"I Finally Gave You the Reigns" (Matthew 11:28-30)

I was lost.

You open Your arms

Welcome me in,

Yet I would run.

I tried to run far and wide.

Run from the guilt,

Run from the pain,

Yet I was drowning in sadness.

I was smothered by depression.

I was confined by darkness.

Bound by self hate

Irate at everything around me

Anger consumed me,

Ate me like

A swarm of locusts destroying the crop.

Starved by loneliness

Crippled by bitterness

Weakened by disappointment –

I didn’t believe in myself.

I was drowning in sadness.

My head above water

Yet it was slowly,

Steadily,

Sinking below the surface.

There was no escape.

I slowly started to accept this fate.
I. GAVE. UP.

But wait –

I hear a voice that says

“It doesn’t have to be this way.

Follow Me.”

Huh? Are You talking to me?

“Follow Me. Take My hand.”

So I went. I took His hand.

For years I believed

But never fully received

His Call for me,

That He lead my life

So I can have peace.

Fine. I give up the reigns.

I can’t do it on my own.

When was I ever able to?

You can cleanse this body? This spirit?

Save me from myself?

Cleanse me from within?

Move in and through me

To renew me

And make me holy?

All ‘cause You know my pain?

And You died for the same?

… You think I'm worth something?

You want to use me?

Fine. Take the reigns.

Broken, defenseless

I stretched out my arms

Vulnerable

And called out in weakness

But I don’t have to fear anymore.

You carry me.

You say:

“Keep the faith! I am here!”

And You carry the weight.

The tears flow,

And sometimes I even feel dreary, weary,

Beat, tired, run down,

But this time You have the reigns.

Matthew 11:28-30.  Just as You promised.

And You said:

“Come to Me, all who are weary and burdened,
and I will give you rest.
Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me,
for I am gentle and humble in heart,
and you will find rest for your souls.
For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

You fill my heart with hope

With joy and peace

And deliver me.

I can do this.

And it’s only because of You.

Dar-Ci Calhoun ~~ 16 February 2012